Let me continue by saying first off that this is not some type of fishing attempt from me. I am not looking for all of my readers to say, "Oh, no! You are beautiful!" or "You are a mom and that makes you super sexy." Blah, blah, blah, yadda, yadda, yadda. Not that anyone would actually say that second quote - haha. I was just paraphrasing to get my point across.
I think it is safe to say that every woman wants to feel sexy. Not just sexy to their husband, but to everyone! You want guys to think you are nice looking and you want girls to envy your...clothes, looks, makeup, hair, something! Or, is that just me? Well, it is me. I admit it. I want to be considered nice looking, or at least the best looking that I can be. haha. I want to feel confident!
Fair warning male, family readers - it gets a little weird from here on out and you may want to stop...
Most of all though, I want Heath to think I'm sexy. This isn't some weight issue, where I can put on loose fitting lingerie and boost my boobs up and out to take his eyes off of my cellulite ass. This is an entire belly to work with! There is no possible way to look sexy while pregnant. Again, at least not to me. I cannot find a way to feel "sexy." Pretty? Maybe, at times. Sexy? No. Not at all.
I miss it. You know? Heath still tells me I'm beautiful and all that jazz. He is a good husband and a pretty good "woo-er." But, I am beginning to feel like he is a pretty good fibber too. ;)
I usual feel one of two things: 1) When he looks at me, all he can see is Olive. Or, 2) When he looks at me, he thinks that it is weird, like alien-like or something.
I came up with those two, because I think them myself! Pregnant bellies are weird! They look so weird and very alien-like to me. I would have to be the Dugger lady before I could get used to them. I am still somehow shocked by Olive, although I knew what to expect. I just kind of forgot...
I really will have no way of coming full circle with this one. I just can't wait until I can hug Heath again and fully embrace him, not jut my butt out like a chicken. It is weird how you easily miss things like that, in only a matter of months of absence.
All I can say is, I'm sorry Heath. I will totally bring sexy back later on this year. It will probably be a much larger, chubbier form of sexy than you knew before Lucy or Olive. But, it'll be sexy nonetheless! ;) Then, perhaps through my weight battles, you will see full-on sexy next year! Here's hopin'!
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